So, I've finally made my TV debut. If you haven't seen it yet, it's worth the four minutes: http://www.wktv.com/news/local/Woman-engaged-to-sex-offender-registry-ruined-our-life-143561776.html
They did an OK job; not great, not bad. 90% of what I said was edited out, including my emphasis on the millions of children and family members whose lives are in danger because of the registry. Also conveniently not included was my polite, concise debunking of several of the most common myths (no, most sex offenders don't re-offend. No, they have not all committed crimes against children. Most victims are abused by people who aren't on the registry.) They also royally screwed up my fiancee's crime and conviction dates, which ironically demonstrates just how misleading the registry is (his entry includes the age of his victim when the crime was committed, NOT when he was convicted, which is a considerable difference). But they did give me something: a platform.
I can assure you that this is far from the last anyone will hear from me. Inevitably, some of the 165+ comments below the story were ignorant, deragatory and missed my point entirely, that their hatred and lack of knowledge is hurting innocent people. Someone went so far as to create a username on the forum "Topix" using my name, and post that my fiancee and I were looking for children to molest. A few months ago it would have bothered me. Now it just makes me laugh.
Whoever that sad person is, who has so little going on in their own life that they try to defame a complete stranger, is doing exactly what I want them to do. I'm glad they would rather act like kindergarteners while I'm out making change and raising awareness. I don't know if they are just scared of the truth, reality or both - but they and all the others that take time out of their busy days to create websites about me, cyber-stalk me and copy and paste random sentences from the hundreds of letters I've written are doing just what I want them to do: STAYING OUT OF MY WAY.
And this is what brings me to owning your fear, family members. You are collateral damage. As long as the registry exists, YOU and your family are in danger. You are easy targets and you are suffering punishment for a crime you didn't commit. The fact that you love a person who made a mistake in their life is nothing to be ashamed of; suggesting that the destruction of families is an acceptable solution to minimizing danger is ludicrous and goes against the very fiber of what our country's values are supposed to be. Destroying families to protect families? I'm confused.
We have two choices: live in fear and hope no one bothers us, our loved ones won't be hurt or killed, and surrender to the reality that we are second class citizens. Or, we can OWN that fear - the fear we've been forced into by a self-serving government and ignorant masses - and use it to our advantage. Family members, you are NOT alone. You have the chance to be a part of something amazing. Please, please join me and the others who have risen out of the darkness and take back our rights to love who we love and not be persecuted for it. The time is now. WE are collateral damage and we cannot be ignored!
Be sure to check out my follow-up to the interview, particularly Rich Ferrucci's pathetic defense of the registry, at the top left of this page.

I agree with your posts and feeling towards the registry. The registry was originally supposed to be a check on actual predators who were medium and high risk but now is just a excuse for politicians to gain more 'voters'. Myself, am one of those low-risk (70pts or less), first time offenders, who made a dumb mistake 4yrs ago due to other factors. My problems have cause my family to split up, my friends to leave and my friends family to split up. I've tried suicide 2x but failed and hope the 3rd succeeds. Until there is a revolution, the Government will never change.
ReplyDeleteDaniel - You are not alone and there are some very dedicated people who are working to change these laws. Please get in touch with me ASAP, I would like to talk to you. iloveanso@gmail.com. Shana
Deletethank you i'm a SO and i met a girl. i was and still am afraid that i'm just being greedy that i'm having a g/f because i want a g/f. i fear that my g/f may not know what it is like to be on the registry. to be put down. i showed her your video and she said that's how she feels. but i have this nagging feeling that i should break it off, because i am the one that did the crime, and i should be the one to pay the price. I Dunoo never were smart.
ReplyDeleteWhy don't you have your girlfriend get in touch with me? It can be very helpful and quite a relief to talk to others who "get it". My email is iloveanso@gmail.com.
Deletei broke up with her. it's just not right to date. i mean... i'm on a life time registry; which means she would be on a life time registry; our kids will be on a life time registry. i care too much for her to hurt her. i had to break up with her. it was just not fair or right. i'm kind of slow in the head. not too smart. yes i know i'm playing god, but for a good reason. would you let someone who doesn't know what fire is play with it? o.o of course not. it just feels wrong. maybe it's the phallometric assessment testing i had while in prison or widely known as the peter meter, coyotee piss, or maybe the covert conditioning that messed with my head, but i feel wrong about dating. when ever aroused i would be shocked. i still have the bell that they would use to as a reminder. sometimes i have to wear my bell to remind me...sorry it was part of my conditioning. shock...bell..shock...bell...
DeleteI'm sorry to hear that. My fiancee and I also struggle sometimes, as he has been conditioned to believe that being attracted to a woman and wanting to express that is wrong. It's disturbing that "treatment programs" are really just exacerbating the problems, not making them better. I hope you'll reconsider separating from your girlfriend. Though it's undoubtedly difficult to be the significant other of an SO, I would do it all over again a million times just to be with mine.
Deletei dunno. it's just that well.... i have a lot of baggage and i'm not too bright. i could email you with a story i wrote in 3rd grade, but it's a little disturbing. i wrote about flying away in a spaceship, and nobody saw me again. i am also adopted found in a dumpster because of my cleft lip. so it's kind of hard for me to accept people. i was in the holt adoption agency, and actually met grandma holt. so you see my psychosis goes really far. it's not just sot stuff, but maybe it's for the best. thank you for your support and i hope everything works out for you. there is a life outside of being an SO but maybe not for me. i'm tired 40, and i've been on the registry for 20 years now. sometimes i feel like giving up, but i'm too chicken to take my own life. ah well at least that is a blessing. :) i want to thank you though for listening to my rants. i'm sorry if i put doubt, fear, and or saddness upon you. i don't want to hurt people anymore.
Deleteps. if you doubt my status my real name is Paul D ammerman. you look me up. i don't care if everyone see's this because well i'm on the registry everyone see's it anyways. :S
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